Unbalance me

甲洞电影之拍摄了～

2012-02-13T09:08:00.000-08:00

这个月的时间有些不够用，erm.....应该讲这个月的假不够用因为都必须用在拍摄电影上~~没错！！就是kepong aka <甲洞>
很幸运的得到一个小小的角色，虽然感觉第一天拍摄时，没得到多大的镜头，但是也尽量表现自己，可惜就是没有表现得给导演眼前一亮，也对镜头没什么敏感，看来我要多加把劲了因为我想做好自己的角色，希望可以突破把，要做得比第一天好～加油！

附上一张我跟我的兄弟还有主角之一　Hero Tai　戴组雄还有位可爱的女学生

还有帮我们化妆的好玩的虎牙美化妆师跟她的同事

既然我们都穿上校服了，所以决定拍一张最近很流行的东西～知道是什么吗？ＸＤ

就是＇那些年＇拉XDDD
看到这个也感觉好笑拉~哈哈

期待接下来的拍摄，快点来啦~~我要演啦！！！~ＸＤＤ

５个小混混～
ｐ／ｓ：感觉自己都不怎样好看～～～；（

其实对于这部戏还有自己很＇正式＇的拍电影放了很高期待，希望这个拍摄后我会学到些什么的还是领悟到什么的～但是我现在知道的就是我认识了不少的朋友～谢谢大家一起拍摄，一起加油的做好自己的角色，让整部电影顺利的拍完，２７帮，我们一起加油！！！～

2012-02-07T00:45:00.000-08:00

这一年过得满快下的了哦~一下就是2月了，2012 ....时间跑得快但是我的成就好像也没什么提升，很担心下得了哦，怕自己真的把自己的未来搞垮了，也怕自己真的孤独终老~
这个月也满开心下的因为得到了一个拍电影的机会，也得到了一个好不错的角色，比临时演员好一些些，也因为要拍着部戏，我必须把我的专著力投射在电影上，也造成我在我的工作岗位上少了一点的关系，应该是讲不管了，ＸＤＤ有些抱歉拉，对于我的同事ｎｉｋｉ，她帮我不少，帮我跟进，减少我的工作量，还好有她进来当我同事，不然可能我也没那个办法参与别的活动～当初当我之前的同事走了，我的生活就是跟着工作跑，也不敢想太多，怕自己会跟不上工作的脚步，怕在期限先没办法把报告做好（虽然是满简单的报告），所以都做工做工，没怎样想，但也有想一些拉，但是也没有太大的动作去做别的东西～

３月，将会是我在这间公司工作了１年，也不知不觉我在这个地方呆了１年，这一年，钱也没存到很多（一个意外钱收不回来了;(　）　想的东西也买不起，想去的地方也只能看着别人去，想要的恋情也只能自己在旁默默地祝福她。

其实每天都在想很多的东西，有好多的不满～但是我都没讲出来，压抑压抑，终有一天我会傻掉，还可能有精神病～所以有时那些在示威的人都是对社会感到不满，对很多人，很多事不满不服但没办法改变。。。他们一边嘶吼，一边流泪，面对社会的残酷，都在不停的战斗，为了就是让自己好过一点，为了就是自己未来的路好走一点～

他妈的！～到底我能不能强一点，我不想就这样生活～＇生命就是不停的战斗＇（九把刀）

兴趣这东西，会有很多人会告诉你兴趣能到饭吃吗？靠腰拉～～可以给些正面的反应吗？至少不要否定别人麻～有人会被刺激而越战越勇，又人则相反，一句话改变一个人，但是真的是一句话改变一个人吗？其实也不过是不爽别人的冷眼对待。当自己成功时，有多少人是会感激对他们冷眼的人呢？反之，还以相对的方式回敬他们，这时就会产生所谓的＇怨＇。　

为什么我越讲越离题？？？　也不觉得阿，因为这篇东西都没主题阿～哈哈　
其实也不过是自己想道什么就写什么，根本不理什么主题不主题的，开心就好，随心就好～把自己套在主题只会限制自己的想象力还有能运用的文字手法～
但是把东西放大来讲，如果国家没有国法，家没没有家规，那这社就不会再那么的安宁了，法定是为了控制人类的行为，因为有些人就是没办法控制自己而做出一些不应该的事，不然你也不会看到报道上的知法犯法的人

靠腰拉，越来越乱水啦～

不写了，搞到自己越来越不平衡，越来越讨厌这社会～

電影《甲洞》- 演員賀新年PART 2

2012-02-06T10:30:00.000-08:00

find me inside ;)

过年时

2012-01-27T11:00:00.000-08:00

初1，初2在亲戚家，跟着就是朋友们的娱乐，原来喝酒不用做工是多么爽的事，这种夜生活我很喜欢~因为每天就像在玩生活，而不是过什么，很爽~生命就是该这样！！！~
喜欢这种感觉，但是时间到了，就要回到闷闷的生活~
但是不要紧，现在享受，玩了才讲！！！！！！~ ：）

祝各位开开心心玩吧！！！~;)

2012-01-18T04:47:00.000-08:00

表错情了吗？为什么我的心那么的不快乐呢？ ;(

4月1日，她要离开了，一去就是4个月多拉，虽然不多，但是我担心很多~

2012 的最最开心事

2012-01-16T10:50:00.000-08:00

本以为我的生日就这样在家过了，没想到她问我要不要出来一起走走还是怎样，我是没想到她愿意，可能她得空？可能她看我生日所以给面子？不管怎样她的出现让我开心得不知所措因为她曾经是我.....

为何讲曾经呢？因为XXX，过后OOO,所以咯~

但是我觉得她不是我的曾经，因为看到她时，原来我才知道其实那感觉还在，只是平时被锁起来了，今天它跑了出来~ 在唱K 时，我不时靠着她的肩旁，她也没回避，但我稍微敢一点的搭她肩旁，玩弄她的头发，好像在疼她那样，她也没回避还是怎样，所以我也不懂她其实喜欢这样吗~但是我那时有个想法就是，既然她没反抗，所以想抱她然后亲她，但是到最后我也没这个胆量去做~
我摸不透她因为我不敢问，如果我问了，结果会不一样吗？还是会把我们变了越来越远了？

有点怕，所以不敢做.....

多希望她可以给我多些提示，至少让我知道我能不能~

怎样都好，我已经很满足了，至少我拥有跟你几个小时的时间，而且是我2012的第一件最最开心的事，我已经不能自拔的笑起来了但是我想起这一晚.

Today is my birthday

2012-01-15T09:08:00.001-08:00

As the title ~happy birthday to myself...good nite.

2012-01-11T15:12:00.001-08:00

Birthday coming....can i make a dream that will come true?

回顾2011，引向2012

2012-01-01T07:04:00.000-08:00

2011，跌跌撞撞，麻木，无奈，空虚，寂寞，高潮迭起，低潮不断，痹了

2012，等待....

last day of 2011

2011-12-30T18:22:00.000-08:00

on 2011,what i had done,what i had not done,what i know ,what i dunkw,what i learn,what i not learn....damn my memory getting old,i cant recall much thing due lack using my brain? maybe .XDDD

too much regret thing happen...alway....change ?people alway say must change else will be disqualified ,really? or because people become reality?

i still wondering my future, and i got a bit jealous with xx people,becos he earn his first income around Rm2k+ at the mlm market. Mlm alway not my cup of tea because the way it work,but the world work like that,if u not accept,u will be outdated~how..;( i hard to take it ...
i feel pekcek, seriously...alway emo~~~2012 will be same ???

i still wondering ...i just worry too much and not telling other.i stress up and fuck up!!!!~..
i am useless ~~~
I hard be the part of the society(money)
people corrupt (money)

people go dark way(money)

family argue(money)

friend argue(money)

government suck(money)

we cant run from the money thing ~~~

X'mas is the day

2011-12-24T20:43:00.000-08:00

Well today is X'mas and yesterday i was nearly end up at home,but luckily having a yamcha session.as least i do hanging around then sitting at home.~
Wish you all Merry Christmas and a happy new year.

Another 1 more week will be 2012 .......

wonder...wonder...seeking and searching....

Synovate and Ipsos Annual Dinner Part 4(last)

2011-12-20T08:36:00.000-08:00

sing eng

puiyan

I think no more new picture will upload~~wonder wonder...anyway...here the picture i wait and wait(with sing eng)..but result is not so good..cos pattern too much..end up ugly face ~~;S why she grow so tall~;s...
next will be queen of the night aka puiyan..(becos the green hair?) could be .~XDDD

anyway.end up the annual thing..and 2012 coming soon...wat will happen to me and the company .....wait and see :)

Synovate and Ipsos Annual Dinner Part 3

2011-12-15T02:01:00.000-08:00

Angelina

Finally grab some picture from other people which i was capture together with different people~
The first will be the Angelina aka HR ~ Still a single lady ~ XDD well,she was nice even sometime she look fierce XD ~

Kelly

Next will be the Kelly Jie~ XDD Dunkw why they call her kelly 'jie' ~she older then them or ...?watever XDD

Actually the point is i just want share some picture rather writting something ..kind of lazy .XDD so ..here the pic.enjoy it la .XD

Since i not getting any prize for the night, and since is friday nite....so i just put all my emotion on the dance floor ..yeah yeah!!~shake shake ..shuffeling~~~ even i think i was SS ...but who care..i happy ok la ~XDD

Meiling

Waifun

SuSean

ChinPei

So far all the picture that i receive,i like the most is the 1 with SuSean because the colour was match,height match,smile match XDD everything was look good and also my big small eye kind of sexy XDDD..but i looking forward with the picture that i took with the tall girl~~~ XDD pekcek~

Synovate and Ipsos Annual Dinner Part 2 blog XDD

2011-12-13T05:54:00.000-08:00

Ok ..because less picture,so the title with Synovate and Ipsos Annual Dinner will be continue updated until no more picture updated~XD
here another picture which the Best Wearing King~M.J?XDD I guess the hat are the winner key?? If i wear a hat...wonder i will win for the best on the night?XDD
He is our company Project Director if i not mistaken .XD Wonder i will be a XXX Director for someday XD Gambatte for my life :)

Here the gift from the annual dinner .the symbol with 'The Better Ipsos'..why not Synovate?i prefer Synovate name better because it sound Energy more..XDD

Today is Company Annual Dinner

2011-12-09T10:56:00.001-08:00

Yes yes..today is the day..My company aka Synovate or aka The Better Ipsos.~XDD
which we having a annual dinner at KLGCC.
It was a good place and nice decoration.
I enjoy the moment of shaking and dancing at the dance floor....free alcohol,free dance floor,what to ask for clubbing some more .XDDD
this is my 2 colleague aka Felicia and Hui Lee ~
Felicia is a hot mom with 5 month pregnant
Hui Lee is a cute out going girl~;)

anyway..i do enjoy the annual dinner even a bit weird i hanging around with those people which not from my department or not really having any connection on job..anyway...just a dinner..just enjoy it la...take out all the stress or sad thing...play and hang to release those bad mood.
Anyway,i work on a good company but i still thinking whether go or stay? i still confuse with my future and what i like to do or need to do...sometime i think i just a potato..no dream at all~i dunkw what i want~~
damn it.!!~
but but but ........back to the topic..this is my first company annual dinner and i hope i can keep join any annual dinner organized by company even i may work at a small company at the future.(normally small company don't have annual dinner,even do had,it still on some restaurant instead on some club house.
I prefer club house because like i mention,free dance floor and alcohol and also sexy lady dancing XDD.~~

人生第一本剧本

2011-12-07T06:58:00.001-08:00

还留着的记忆，感觉像昨天发生的事酱

钱包aka小包包不见了~T。T

2011-11-30T09:25:00.001-08:00

昨天真的很鬼倒霉，应该被别人看到我的一副要死要命的样，所以比较容易下手，把我放在书包的小包包给偷走了！！！~FUCk！！！！~害我在KL 晃来晃去找银行取消我的卡，一间又一间的去，而且身无分文，水也喝完了，简直就是狼狈的一天~~
也去了警局一趟报案，没办法了~；（
但是好在我的小包包在KLCC 的Guardian找到了，那边的职员打电话给我（包包内有我的电话号码），说我的包包在那里，但是里面没钱了~~~~~
靠！！！~很心痛~害我现在要去银行一家一家去申请回我的卡片，但是也幸好那个小偷没把我的包包丢在没人发现的地方，不是的话就麻烦咯，又要去这边弄这个，去那边弄那个~麻烦~~~;s
心痛的是那笔钱，真的心痛~~~~~~
诅咒偷我钱拿来用的人，去死啦，给车撞死！！！！`
希望那个guardian的人可以透过CCTV看到是那个人把我包包带到Guardian那边去~~~
pokai人！！！！~
没办法，只好省点用了~~；（

生活无常，pekcek ...

信仰这会事...

2011-11-25T09:14:00.001-08:00

其实我不是不要有个信仰，只是我觉得这个会让自己变弱，当有什么困难就找人求助，我不喜欢这个感觉~其实这些信仰只是一个精神的寄托，让自己跌倒还有个可以扶持自己的东西，意志弱的人需要信仰来维护他们害怕的东西；但不否认意志强的也需要信仰~
今天去朋友的教会，其实之前去过了，但是那时自己也不怎样会想，现在比较会想把~看到教会给的东西：正能量还有归属感，也是很多家庭给不到年轻一辈人的东西，也是破碎家庭的小孩需要的东西~因为教会给到他们这些东西，让他们也了解生命的意义~

其实我要信也没问题，只是还不想，可能我还有出路，等有一天，我真的崩溃说出我真的无路可走了，那时我开始信也可能不迟而且也会对它更加信于因为它把我从无路可走变到柳暗花明又一村XDDD

所以现在我还是信自己，只有这样我才会对自己的生活有所负责

最后还是要谢谢带我去教会的朋友gloria~因为她给我把一星期的心情解放了，好爽~XD 难道这个是归属感？XDDOhhh NOoooo~~XD

凌晨的运动

2011-11-23T08:47:00.001-08:00

哈哈，别想歪歪，只是普通的跑跑跳跳留些汗~毕竟在公司上班，除了坐在电脑面前的手部运动，都很少运动，油先生渐渐拜访我了~没法了，只好运动了~~

但是奇怪是运动出汗后，人也比较爽了~（因为有去冲凉嘛) ~
我知道如果我要有健康，还有好看的身体线条，就必须运动..
很多多说在家运动没那个mood,其实都是看自己的意志力啦，我没多余的钱去那些健身中心，也没有锻炼身体的仪器，用的只是一面镜子，播不停的音乐歌声还有意志力（只在20分钟之内XD），这些对我来说已经是最好的了~虽然效果可能比去健身中心的人来的慢，但是长期下来应该不错的~
要的不多，少些肥肉，多些肌肉~加油！！！~

Jason Statham..他的身材好到~~~练到就好~看得又打得~~
如果我是他就好咯~XDD

加油~

thank you says.my

2011-11-13T19:37:00.001-08:00

Is been 8 month i join says.my and i think i having a good and smart choice by create an account to enjoy the benefit at there :)

yes!!!~i had won a PSP from a campaign from says.my

Seriously,is my very first time won such luxury item from someplace and i really appreciate the effort of my friend willing to create an account and willing to help me to get what i want,but especially to says.my that giving such good prize~

i had also cash out for my very first time -Rm50 ~Even the amount was small and it take almost 1 month to bank in to my account,but i still happy with it. My support to says.my will never end..because it just give me lot of surprise which i cant expect.

属于寂寞的我

2011-11-12T10:53:00.001-08:00

寂寞属于我的，它就是我

寂寞寂寞就好，对~习惯就好

开始是一个人，结束也是一个人~

控制自己不要掉入爱的陷阱因为一旦掉了就爬也爬不回来了

所以我理性选择关上爱神之门，任由多大的爱都进不来

因为我想....

保护自己

忙，还是忙

2011-11-09T08:05:00.000-08:00

最近都挺忙的，在公司做到pekcek ...想要偷懒下下都不可以，可能是报应之前偷懒太多~
做酱多，人工也不过一样~无奈

如果我是个百万富翁就好咯~是咯。。。去发梦就有咯~ＸＤＤ

希望不要被工作弄得自己忘了自己是谁就好了～～

毕竟这感觉是错了～

林夕剧场第二届小品《D'LaB》

2011-11-06T11:17:00.001-08:00

“传统所延续下来的文化仿佛导航，带领我们以使我们不会迷失，走得健稳；
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继去年开始了小品的文化之后，我们今年也成功将此延续，好让爱戏剧的你与我们的学员有个交流的平台！这次我们将为大家呈现5部小品，分别由5位不同的导演执导。

演出日期：2011年12月3日（星期六）
2011年12月4日（星期日）

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演出地点：拉曼学院舞蹈室（TARC Dancing Room或UA 026）

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按这>>> 林夕剧场第二届小品《D'LaB》

终于来了，林夕的成功不是一朝一夕的，是全体上下的林夕们，当然最大功劳归功于志坚~
他带来的改革，把他从以前学的东西毫不吝啬的注入林夕，把林夕一步一步地带到外面的世界，也把林夕的名打响了~ 坚持是必须要做的，所以林夕的第二届也是透过他们不停的努力进步，慢慢的时间他们想要完成的梦~

如果当天得空的话，就去捧他们的场把，毕竟戏剧之路不好走，但是你们的出席将会给他们得到无与伦比的美好，也坚定他们对戏剧的热诚，继续不停的进步，为了给观众体会他们的成长与努力.....

不明白，发生什么事了

2011-11-06T07:49:00.001-08:00

真的不明白发生什么，她为什么这样的？法官判罪人也会告诉他犯了什么罪，可是你却连个回复都没有~至少给我明白，我死也死得甘心~~

又是她~~

2011-11-06T07:47:00.000-08:00

没错，又是两个傻的，又是跟她一起去唱 K.....看来我好像只有一位朋友而且~~ＸＤＤ谢谢她，也谢谢我～我们永远是好朋友好ｂｒｏｔｈｅｒＸＤＤ面对这位richard....我会很放心，不懂为什么，就好像我对milo老师那样，就是感觉对了，面对他们，我会可以把握封闭起来的门开个小小的窗来透透气，虽然很小但好过没有~谢谢

Love is blind

2011-10-27T08:20:00.001-07:00

Do you agree..Love is blind..but not blind by eye by but by emotion.Damn the emotion!!!~ Some how i know i must shut it down...I just get wrong love at wrong time wrong place...tat all~~

2011-10-25T22:47:00.001-07:00

最近爱上拍部分自己

第一次的参与

2011-10-25T22:46:00.000-07:00

第一次参与电影拍摄，当个小小的临演，但是已经很满足了，因为我很喜欢~~虽然只有5秒左右的镜头，但是我已经觉得世界属于我的了~我爱演戏，也很怕演戏我爱但我也无奈~~

Good Buddy-Richard

2011-10-25T22:43:00.001-07:00

She is my buddy which can lepak when i need someone for lepak...Her name is Richard Ng...XDDThank you!!!!~

2011-09-27T05:25:00.000-07:00

My soul is dying~~the spirit was getting weak and weak,it unable stand a fight again...pity soul...~><

2011-09-25T09:10:00.001-07:00

Feel to cry,but i cant,tell myself be strong想哭，但是不可以，告诉自己要坚强

2011-09-25T08:55:00.000-07:00

他们与我有隔膜了，我变成一个人了~渐渐的我一个人没问题了，但是也有问题~我一个人....

《五月天追夢3DNA》

2011-09-15T21:52:00.000-07:00

去看了这一部戏，不~应该是小故事+演唱会~~~五月天的歌是属于真能量的，给与的音乐影响了很多人~在电影院里，因为是第一天上映，也是3D，所以戏票满贵，Rm19，所以当我进戏院是~OMG！！！只有小猫几只~~~我好爽！！！！~因为不会被别人kacau到，不会因为别人讲话，吃东西而且影响我看戏，感觉戏院的味道~~~爽爆！！！~喜欢五月天的朋友一定要去看，因为这戏会给五月天的歌迷绝对的兴奋~~~因为人少关系，我可以跟着大唱五月天的歌，大约有60分钟是演唱会片断，30分钟3个小故事，所以当有演唱会的部分，我也随音乐唱起歌来，而且很大声那种，但是不担心因为戏院的音响比我大声，所以看完后，我喉咙痛了~~~XD但是很爽！！！！！~希望以后看戏都可以有酱少人！！~XDDD

五月天迷，你们一定要去看！！！！！~我爱上了五月天！！！！~<3

Nasi Lemak 2.0 Cinema session

2011-09-09T22:39:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah!!!~Finally go Cinema watch a movie..is been a while i not go for cinema,i feel like i was home and the world belong to me,inside the cinema,i feel safe and no stress at all!!!~But...unlucky this time i got bit piss off because someone who sit beside me,a chinese girl..talk phone,talking, discussing the movie and expect before the movie show the scene,god like she the script writer,fuck~~~

RESPECT CINEMA LA,ASSHOLE!!!~

Back to the movie,yes,i love it,and well because i saw myself as k ler fer in the movie,happy with it even just for while~XDD
second and i like the way Namewee express about the society~^^
the most funny part for me is the Indian dance and sing and where Indian normally can be found,is behide tree or flower..damn true !!!~XDD i cant stop laughing for tat part.
and certain part of the movie was scene behind scene which was happen at malaysia,he just express it out and show to us in some humor way~~good job.
anyway,feel free go for this movie u will get another opinion on him,
Say no Racist because we One Malaysia~^^

2011-09-07T08:29:00.000-07:00

i just sad lot,time for tear?i dun think so..~~:(

holiday insane

2011-08-31T07:58:00.001-07:00

3 day holiday~~~and i spend 2 day on home without doing any useful thing except on9 all the time and blur under some condition,shit me~~~
anyway,i not feel good during this 2 day too..cos too much thing,that i cant accept the way is it.
I going to be insane!!!~i just cant accept it,i want to voice out but end up not saying it instead keep angry with it.damn!!~

我.自卑

2011-08-28T09:05:00.000-07:00

终于，我去考了Foa...结果题目离我读的看的远远不一样，好吧，等死~~我用不到一小时的时间，过后就坐在那一直想，我已经不能了，我失败了，我的两年Diploma,拿不到了~虽然我还有机会重考，但是我的心已经不能了，而且我也不喜欢那科目~~~我家人还不知道，他们以为我考了就拿到文凭，其实我一张大便纸都拿不到，这下惨了，找工不易了~因为少了一张纸，大公司没我的份，有也只是小小职员一位，~~我真的死得了~~因为那张东西，我的薪水也高不了哪里，只有自己做老板才可以改变没文凭，低薪的宿命~
虽然没得到文凭，但是好歹也读过学院，只是没毕业，但是我还是被归类为SPM等级~~

因为这样，我更加自卑，但是我总是表现得不要紧~~
生边朋友都是一纸在手，而且什么都没有，物以类聚，人以群分，我是不是不该.....

我真的很自卑！！！~><

2011-08-22T08:25:00.000-07:00

不死就好

Cant Fall Sleep

2011-08-21T12:48:00.000-07:00

WTF with me...ya~~i still thinking those problem...$$ Issue~~I dun like this feel..i may be reality with the $$ but i stil dunwant lose myself.

I cant stand along with my $$ was decrease and no much $$ left at my bank.I feel insecure...

一些想法

2011-08-21T08:57:00.000-07:00

对我而言，钱可能很重要，也可能不重要，因为我要的不多，可以养活自己就可以了，但是如果要成家立业，钱就不可以只够养活自己了~所以我不交女朋友，也没想过要结婚，因为我给不起承诺，给不起比较好的生活，我不想结婚后因为钱的关系就要吵吵闹闹，如果要吵闹，倒不如不要结婚，害了别人，也连累下一代~
严格来说我很自我，我爱自己，我不想自己受伤害，但是很多时候无名的伤害一而在伤害我，家，它在伤害我，我不满意我的家，虽然我有时还ok,但是长期有不满的情况出现，累计下来的伤会越来越多，多到想离开这个家，但是最终走不了，因为它还是个家，这个家把我锁起来了，我跑不了，我爱家，也恨家，这样我很郁闷，我也做不了什么~
很多事情我控制不了，因为你是你，我是我，东西是东西，事情是事情，想要改变，就要改变很多东西，改变不难，难在习惯不改变，所以将改变变得不宜而且
我的家将我的梦想杀了，嗯嗯嗯.....不要讲是梦想拉，就说我想要的，是我的家杀了我想要的东西，很多可能也跟我一样，因为离不开家，结果苦了自己，跳楼，自杀，离家出走但后来被找回来....有人认为他们的做法很笨，很愚蠢，认为他们自私，没错他们是，但至少他们认为死后那些枷锁会离去，对我来说，这样可能不错，我不是鼓励自杀，只是表现出对于他们的行为，至少他们认为他们解脱了，这样就好~

我要的是我的生活我的方式，但是别人就是喜欢以他们的方式破坏我的方式，我渐渐的丧失我的生活方式，走的是人们的行尸走肉的方式，他妈的！！！！我不要!!!!!!~

2011-08-20T23:17:00.000-07:00

I willing go for jail for killing bad guy

回不了

2011-08-20T08:29:00.001-07:00

一天一天的，在寻找天堂的路上，看得很多形形色色的人，奇奇怪怪的事情~

因为这些人，这些事情将我的路程给模糊了，看不见路的方向，感觉已经走在错误的路上，虽然是这样，我还是继续走那怕或许这是个考验也或许真的是死路....

这次真的回不了天堂了

对 ‘人’ 的见解

2011-08-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

p/s;因为本人懒惰，所以还没开始写，所以等有心情才在写啦~~这个也是个对人的见解哦~XD
突然觉得自己很有文化~~XDDD

我就喜欢

2011-08-16T17:54:00.001-07:00

我喜欢一个人吃饭，因为我可以很快吃完不等别人
我喜欢一个人看戏，因为我会把自己放进戏里看戏
我喜欢一个人发呆，因为我在想很多有的没的
我喜欢晚上不睡觉，因为晚上我可以发挥寂寞的威力
我喜欢一个人逛街，因为我可以没有目的的走走
我喜欢一个人乱走，因为这样才感觉有冒险
我喜欢写有的没的，因为写了很爽~XDD

Chance to get Rm1000!!~

2011-08-16T05:57:00.000-07:00

AREＹＯＵREADY!!!Clink me!!~

There is alway got chance to win something or earn some extra $$ from internet..But i never understand why people not trust on in,too much cheater or what? whatever~opportunity was there and i try to grab it,so i wish i can get more and more

Just a outstanding picture or a video stand a chance to win Rm1000...Why wait!!!~Let Join!!!!~^^

2011-08-13T10:15:00.000-07:00

No person can be like by all people even a superstar got their enemy too.So do i,so why i want make myself so concern about how people look at me?Maybe i dun want other people look negative on me and share the rumor about any bad on me to other and influence their perception on me.

That also 1 of the reason why some my friend dun like other of my friend,because their mind was think different,they cant accept each other the way they are.This problem make me very confuse because i need deal with both of them.Each time i hanging around with a group,i will firstly think the way their are so that not feel like rejected by them.

Now,i realize that impossible for me to alway be different on different people,it hard and not good.

I need help....

2011-08-11T22:48:00.000-07:00

Count down for around 2 and the half week for my resit paper.

I very agree with the statement which say 'after work cannot focus back to study' by-ChooPin XDDD

Yup,for myself, i really can't because i hardly to do everything come once.Now intention now was working but studying for my paper was sub-intention. I barely to take out the note and had a look.Is because i give up or what? i not sure but i can sure is i alway got this weakness, FOCUS.

Focus on everything but not 100%,i alway keep some focus on myself rather then something because i scare to fall.i cant handle failed,and a reason for myself too if i fail for something i not focus 100%.Even the thing is like that,but i will try la,at least i try,i not saying how many focus or afford i put,but i will try because never try never know instead saying focus and afford guarantee success.

Respect Issue part 2

2011-08-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

Today is my second day of training,but the same issue come up,yeah...i mean that no manner person,even she show 'a bit' participate but end up suck too. Someone told me because people not willing to listen her suggestion and try other method but she refuse and say so bored( because her teammate not accept her opinion) and then not give a damn and do own work aside. WTH....RESPECT RESPECT LA !!!~how old are u,do u learn any manner in your entire life,your behavior was reflex your personal daily life too,which mean u show no manner to other people too often.

I wonder what will happen after this if the trainer was complaint about it? even her teammate speak it out,but she still do whatever and not care. did she use her brain or she think by ass,even the one work with you also bek tahan you la.just they dun say it out,but at least u can feel it!!!~

you know what i gonna tell u, go screw yourself!!!~

Show some respect!!!~

2011-08-08T04:55:00.000-07:00

Today went for company training at Cititel. I was bit enjoy because no need to work and can relaxing by learn something new...Today our trainer Deon. From my opinion,i feel he still new,that why he not really get my fully attention.Bless him do better next time :P

But he not my main point,my main point is those attend the training but showing a not give damn action. What a shame,did their realize that they are represent our company,did their even ever give a damn care on the trainer..Stupid fellow not give respect all at and not even show participate in the training too..If u so damn fucking good then u can skip the training la..what for u come and show your fucker face.It was not a good manner.I seriously not happy with this but i not saying a word because i don't like make argument with them,either listen or not,up to them..company had offer a opportunity to them to be a better person,if they resist to participate,then better go suck yourself tomorrow rather then come to show your piss off face.

Home issue

2011-08-07T08:31:00.000-07:00

Seriously ....I not hate my family..but just not enough like it.

When my dad ask me some question,either i silent or dun give a damn, because i dun feel to help him either for something i feel not to answer. something he ask was not what i like to do or willing to do.If i say 'No',there will be lot of coming question to me,that why i prefer dun talk a word and get scold by other family member. Whatever,who care,i not give a damn,i don't want find any problem,but mostly my family give me problem which they think not a problem or maybe for other too but for me...family was my problem.

Don't they understand what mean by "No" or "Don't want"....when i mention my word,they will start getting some piss off and ask why why why...OMG...i don't think that i will gonna tell everything a reason before i say a simply statement.

If i had say 'No',then stop for any question,because u making yourself piss off and me either.It was not good feeling,ok!!!!~ I JUST NOT LIKE , I JUST NOT WANT TO DO IT!!~I SAY I DUN WANT!!!I DUN WANT!!!!~UNDERSTAND!!!!~

Inside myself,i had seal my soul in the deep of my heart.No one can even break through it, all my feel,i seal it,i don't want express it out,i don't want give other see my weakness.The best is to hurt other before other hurt me.That how i survivor,that how i not getting hurt by other.

Being strong is not easy,but i still do it even i may look not strong even =).I just hate to show other that i was terrible weak and useless. I was lack of secure,i was too afraid till i cant express it out.

My sister say u so free and no stress,help your dad!~ Halo~~,did i need to show that i so stress or not free,what a funny word from her.i not even want to give her any response. On my point,if u want something,u get yourself,do thing yourself to get what u want.i do apply this to my family member,that why i reject to help them.
i may be so good and so kind to all my friend but my family??? no way~~~i just not understand~~~maybe...maybe i just not satisfied with my family.

I can had lot problem or no problem.because i not really know my problem but the problem was there and i alway feel unsecured all the time.alway....never stop to worry or scare...

I going crazy soon.

迎来新的，但不除旧的

2011-08-05T23:12:00.000-07:00

要开始了，至少要不一样，加油~

Day with my Buddy Richard XDD

2011-08-02T09:40:00.001-07:00

Lomo You Lomo Me

2011-07-12T11:45:00.001-07:00

Bersih 2.0

2011-07-09T11:23:00.000-07:00

Why we bersih???

we need true!!!~

Why we bersih???

we want stop corrupt!!!~

2011-07-02T11:08:00.000-07:00

真的是借口吗???
我没办法做很多我想做的，我把罪名判在现实生活

一天一天过，除了一天比一天老去，我的进步成长有增加到吗？？？

一天一天过，我学了多少的东西？？？

每次想一个‘梦想’，每次也会想一个‘借口’

真的是借口吗？？？

‘经济’，‘家’ 是我最大的‘借口’

因为‘家’，‘借口’的可信度大大增加。。。

因为‘经济’，‘借口’可以抹杀一个梦想。。。

真的是借口把好好的一个人摧毁的忘了欲望，忘了梦想，忘了自己。。。

我很怕，可是我又有’借口‘跟别人说我过得很好，请放心。。。

借口很得很厉害

2011-06-26T00:24:00.000-07:00

以前，看见power ranger 在打坏人，立志要当个好警察，好兵士
以前，以为自己很会画画，立志要当画家
以前，看见羽球魅力，立志要当羽球员
以前，看见beckham,立志要当足球小将
以前，看见漫画的英雄，幻想自己也是个有能力的英雄

现在，看见别人有钱，幻想自己比他又钱
现在，看见别人在为目标奋斗，自己还在寻找出路
现在，看见别人这边玩那边去，自己还在幻想要自由

以前，认为自己自命不凡；现在，知道自己太平凡

2011-06-25T08:21:00.001-07:00

用力的往胸口打，让自己变得更强

2011-06-19T06:04:00.000-07:00

today my friend make my dream come dream...even i know the dream was small and i do it not perfect..but i still accept it with my heart...hope i get a chance..^^

2011-06-15T15:23:00.000-07:00

昨天真的很lucky，因为我看见了周杰伦，他们来到midvalley这边拍戏~~

本来没那个机会，因为本来我应该在火车站等火车，但是刚好我忘记拿我的钱包，所以被逼回公司去，也因为这样，我遇见了他~哈哈，看见杰伦，我感觉好像初恋XDD 因为这是我第一次近距离看见一位艺人（3个小步）...

也因为这样，我心中的火有被燃烧起来（当演员的梦想）XDD 但是我知道自己的机会是很渺小....所以我都在压抑自己当观众....

其实我真的很想当主角！！！~

复杂的心情

2011-06-12T08:39:00.000-07:00

今晚的心情很复杂....
因为我以为我忘了她，原来我还放不下她...
今晚她介绍她家的新成员给我认识 poodie
也因为它，她有了个想法，想要小孩~~我还故意逗她叫她男朋友娶她拉~

她讲才21，没这快啦，她也想不要怀孕，但是想要小孩，会想领养小孩把~~
她问我，那你准备做爸爸吗？我有停下想，告诉她没有，因为我还没敢爱，怕伤害，这责任太大，我负荷不来~
这时我也知道我永远不可能是她的那位....

我们也聊了我们的第一次见面，见过几次~
原来我们的第一次见面在厕所外面XDD 原来我们只见过4次，只有4次~~~但是我对她不止是这4次，可能一见钟情把~XD
人家说爱一个人，你就会记得她很多的东西，讲过的话但是我也没有很好的头脑去记得那些东西，只是我的感觉就是喜欢上她，没理由的爱上~ 爱需要理由？我不知，至少我跟感觉走，所以爱对我来说可以没有理由也可以有理由~

在cam前，我叫她申出手来，玩cam拍掌，哈哈~其实我是想感觉看见却摸不到的感觉，其实很伤但也很甜~~
过后她好模仿我XDD 所以我很自然比出个爱心给她，她也一样，过后我故意说我接受你的心了~哈哈
她也叫我好好保管~~放心，我一定带在身边~

11半左右，因为明天她需要早起，所以我们的对话也到这边，但是我很开心同时也很伤感~

原来我真的爱着她，久久不能自拔...

2011-06-12T02:17:00.000-07:00

世界太吵了！！！~！

2011-06-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

有左就有右，有好人就有坏人，有有钱人就有没有钱的人，有公平，就有不公平...

因为宇宙的运作，是对立了，没有得改变的东西，你能做的就是选择要站那一边...

有人当好人，但有句话说‘人善被人欺’ 所以坏人的出现符合这句话，而且坏人的数量远远多过好人，每个人心中都有个坏人，有些人的心中的好人战胜坏人，但是很多时候坏人永远领先好人好多回，导致这个社会不管在哪里，不管什么时候都发生坏人所犯下的错而导致人们对这社会没有好感，渐渐的人们开始伪装了....

2011-06-06T08:52:00.001-07:00

2011-06-05T07:59:00.000-07:00

i want go travel.i will plan it and go..my first place will be Thailand.

2011-05-29T04:04:00.001-07:00

i wish i got superpower...

i wish i am different,but yes,i am different with other as we a unique single person...

but i wish i was different more...gaining some superpower...just like those anime,games heroes,having superpower.....

the world is too big,and i got not enough power to do a big thing
i know impossible but i just wish somehow somewhere i can get some special ability to self-satisfaction.

2011-05-22T00:17:00.001-07:00

how u think about human?
how u think about the society?
we are belong to the society or self?
sometimes we can't make any change....
what we can do is try to fit the society and adopted self into so that never been abandon by the society...
in order to do it,we must turn ourself to some 'not easy' person,because we only will not get deep hurt if we cover with shield....
but when we need a shelter,who will lead a hand for us???

2011-05-22T00:12:00.000-07:00

I just talk to myself which i barely heard what i said

2011-05-21T03:49:00.000-07:00

2011-05-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

becos the paper,salary lower
becos the paper,less awareness of bos
becos the paper,lack repect from other
becos the paper,i feel suck

becos the paper,i havent the get the paper

becos the paper.....

i hate

2011-05-14T20:04:00.000-07:00

Money is the balance of life or self are the balance of life?

2011-05-12T05:34:00.000-07:00

I screw my plan and my life again...
Thank to u ...

C-

Her Picture cheer up my Sunday..^^

2011-05-08T07:20:00.001-07:00

2011-05-08T07:18:00.000-07:00

我不专业，但我爱拍照

2011-05-02T06:31:00.000-07:00

2011-04-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

希望自己可以用很多的字眼来形容很多的心情，感觉，但是别人说有些感觉是说不出了，为什么？词穷吗？还是真的有说不出的感觉？

2011-04-26T15:42:00.001-07:00

尝试一星期写一次blog的好习惯~~~

2011-04-22T22:16:00.000-07:00

Feel like wth...

Life like wth...

Eat like wth...

Damn like wth...

ya~~~`

wth!!~

2011-04-16T00:40:00.001-07:00

为五斗米折腰

2011-04-02T08:02:00.000-07:00

心理学

一个看似复杂，但也包含简单的东西，可以很直接，也可以很婉转

我想多了解

2011-03-30T08:22:00.000-07:00

友情可以贫穷到这样~~可悲~

2011-03-29T07:04:00.000-07:00

被环境折磨，我好难过，好难过...

2011-03-29T07:03:00.001-07:00

伤心难过不知所措

2011-03-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

真心对待，别人会珍惜吗？

2011-03-25T20:02:00.000-07:00

认识你是好是坏？

我不懂，但至少我多认识一个地球人~

2011-03-18T09:27:00.000-07:00

每当到了深夜的时候我总是睡不觉
但是现在习惯了做工的日子，所以到时间会自动去睡觉~
今天是星期6，所以不用早睡~~XD 但是我提不起mood来去看我的FOA~

无奈~

3月15-林夕的回忆

2011-03-15T05:19:00.000-07:00

这一晚，留出压抑不少日子的泪水～都是Milo错，特地kacau我，害我留泪～

原本没有去的，但是在上班时间想到今晚就是林夕的演出了，去吗？考虑了很久，很久～～结果去了～
我真的想把自己放在跟他们一线，我真的不甘心，真的～～但是算了～是你的就是你的，时间到了，它还不来，你就只能说ｂｙｅｂｙｅ～
人数，人面，场地，绝对是数一数二～～
我在台下远远的望，看，看到熟悉的面孔，他们进步了，也看到他们很享受，我替他们开心！！！～
看到某些戏场，我留泪～因为那个很强烈的心情，我真的不能忍了，但是又不敢哭出来因为旁边坐着个不认识的人ＸＤＤ

从演出开始到演出完，演员都很强，又有个人特色，唱得跳得，比我强多了～～＞＜

看见介玲真的不得不佩服她～～～多的不讲，她应该知道我佩服她什么～ＸＤＤ
秋淇真的不错，超喜欢她的～丽盈也一样～凯斯，佩利，勇豪，思盈，可欣，乔谦，伟斌，祖儿，健聪，福泷，秋娴
我认识的他们．．．．真的很棒，还是有我不认识的咏耀，建玮，淑惠Only You～（她的名真的很特别），启祥，美蒨（美女），振辉，依薇，海霓，你们也不赖～
总之大家的努力还有付出，我真心感受到～

过后看见ah girl，真的想抱多几秒，一方面很久没见，二来真的想她～真的．．．．

最后我才去找ｍｉｌｏ，给他酸一下害我哭了～感性的不多说，但是我真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的很开心看到ｍｉｌｏ老师！！！！！～听到没有！！！！～我很开心看到你！！！！！！～看到你感觉就很安心！！！！～

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过后跟老师说再见，远远的望着台上的他们，羡慕与不甘心，只能在心中沸腾着，久久离开不去～

我好想．．．．

回到过去．．．

Start.End

2011-03-13T01:52:00.000-08:00

I had been work for 1 week and 4 day. Quality Control(Qc) was my job,under company Synovate at Menara IGB.
Seriously i not feel stress for this job and thinking about will it be my career? but unfortunately someone ex-Qc tell me some issue that make me feel negative for the job,wonder will affect my thinking?
I was trying to be positive recently,i dun want be emo,sad or any bad thinking,but there alway got such evil will come and disturb you and make u suffer to decided some important decision.
Today is Sunday and i spend my half day on sleep and facebook and some movie and yet touch my resit paper FOA revision,still wonder can i pass it?i just pray and hope i can do it and pass it ASAP.
Earthquake(earth)+Tsunami(water)+ exploding(fire+radiation)3 element of earth chaos Japan badly~Let us pray for them...I really respect them because their high self-discipline,helping each other,no panic when thing happen.This make why Japan be the strong country even their just small and lack of resources country.Show respect~~

Earth give disaster but Japan give us a role lesson

Hope the damage on Japan can reduce as much as possible,for those rich people,if u can or i should say if u willing donate some $$ for them to buy some useful stuff,do help~or help according to your ability~God will bless for your kind~
Monday coming and i hope will be a good day and great positive day for me~~Gambatte~~

2011-03-11T22:40:00.000-08:00

Pray for Japan...Gambatte~~

2011-03-05T19:50:00.000-08:00

i still try to gambatte,positive
even many thing knock me down,
even many thing drag me hell,
even sometimes i cant help myself,

but....

i just try.....

try.....

becos i scare....

tat y i keep try....

try.....

just to be tough and positive...

2011-03-01T06:22:00.001-08:00

First day work,70% ^^

2011-02-23T07:15:00.001-08:00

Human is ugly...
人类是丑的...

2011-02-22T21:01:00.000-08:00

Fundamentals of accounting C-
Quantitative Studies F

Fail again........=.=

2011-02-22T03:49:00.000-08:00

I just need ' Nike ' when i say something to anyone

2011-02-18T02:19:00.000-08:00

我担心得要命，但是我都没表现在我家人面前，也怕自己会被亲戚朋友讲为什么酱不长进~
但是我就是不知道自己要做什么，而且这边找工真的麻烦，没有交通，
如果我搬回KL....
可能没问题，但是不好的是做到的钱要给租金，妈妈，扣得来，存也不多，我只是想早点多存点钱...

Love to edit~^^

2011-02-14T10:17:00.000-08:00

2011-02-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

2011年....

21岁的我，没有自己的汽车

21岁的我，没有自己的房子

21岁的我，没有多过500块的户口

21岁的我，没有女朋友

21岁的我，没有了理想

21岁的我，没有目标

21岁的我，习惯一个人

21岁的我,习惯静静

21岁的我，习惯不说话

21岁的我，多了压力

21岁的我，少了动力

21岁的我，少了爱

21岁的我，少了笑容

21岁的我，多了无奈

21岁的我，多了想法

21岁的我，不懂做什么

21岁的我.....

2011-02-13T01:40:00.001-08:00

yesterday genting

saja saja

2011-02-10T01:39:00.000-08:00

2011-02-09T23:57:00.000-08:00

本来说部落格可以解放自己，但是当我真的不开心时，我还有那个写的心情吗？
新年快完了，也就是讲我要找工做了~已经send resume出了，但是我怕拿不到那份工...（担心）

现在真的慌在内，定在外

你看不到，所以你说我不care，其实我怕....

真的很怕...

2011-02-09T09:14:00.001-08:00

different people different level of life